Did you, too, wonder as a child what it would be like to live on your own, what kind of home you’d have, and whether you’d have an apartment or a house? If so, I don’t blame you at all, and you’re certainly not alone in this, because I, too, imagined as a child where and how I would live—I wanted a truly beautiful and clean home, but unfortunately, I haven’t managed to achieve that at all. It’s not that my home isn’t clean, but unfortunately I have four kids who are always making a mess, and I can’t keep up with cleaning because I’m also studying remotely and working two part-time jobs on top of that.
I couldn’t find a single decent job, and financially, two part-time jobs work out better for me than just one job, so I decided that in order to at least keep my home tidy—so that my living space would actually be livable—I’d find a cleaning lady to help me with the cleaning. I was really happy when I found an affordable cleaner within a week who helped me clean the house. She comes over every two weeks and cleans for two hours. I think this is much better. I can handle some light cleaning during the day, but if I need someone to really scrub the floor behind the couch or behind the furniture, or wash the windows, I need a lot of help with that.
You might be wondering why my partner doesn’t help. And I’ll tell you this: because I don’t have a partner. My partner left because he couldn’t handle our four kids. I was really sorry about it, but what was I supposed to do? I’m definitely not the type of person who’s always trying to convince someone to stay with me and stuff like that. So I told myself I’d rather be alone with the kids and hire a cleaning lady than be with a partner who doesn’t suit me and whom I’m not at all excited about. I’d rather have the kind of home I have now, where it’s messy, than have a partner with whom I don’t feel comfortable at all. I don’t think I’m the only one who feels this way.